World Series Game Six

Please win.
to do...
1) vocab quizzes
2) physics homework
3) ap government reading
4) run
5) In Cold Blood/sleep

Halloween Weekend

I'm addicted to wasting time.
I now have a functioning twitter account, even though I don't have a smart phone.
I didn't run today because I couldn't find my head phones.
Turns out that my brother used them and they were in his room.
Tomorrow I have to wake up early and go to a FBLA meeting.
Then I have to survive another day of school.
Then after school there is a swimming meeting.
I have to start eating very, very healthy now - and stop eating so much.
There is only one week until swimming starts.
I only say this because I don't want to look like a sloppy slob in my swimming suit.
I also SHOULD run tomorrow and the next day, but I want to see the play tomorrow and Trick or Treat Street is on Friday.
I have two interviews for yearbook or newspaper or FHNtoday or something.
One of which forces me to travel to sports authority.
Then I have to pick up some flowers for Julia and Chase, and go see the play.
Maybe I can go running right before the play, but I seriously doubt it.
The play is from seven to nine.
So if I finish all of my homework maybe I can run right after, but I know I'm going to want to go to sleep.
At some point I also have to bake cupcakes for NHS' Trick or Treat Street room.
Then Friday I have to wake up even earlier and go to a NHS meeting.
Then I have to survive another day of school.
Then I have to stay after and set up for Mu Alpha Theta's Trick or Treat Street room.
At some point I'll have to run home and put on my Hermione costume.
Then I'll have to comeback between 5 pm and 7 pm, then stay to clean up until around 8:30 pm.
Then Bridget invited me to go dance in bars on main street with her.
Who knows if thats actually going to happen.

Jackie wants me to go get stuff for her costume Saturday morning, but I'll probably be dead tired.
In the evening everyone is going to Marie's house for a Halloween party.

Sunday morning I'll probably go to church.
Then from 5pm to 9pm I'll be volunteering at the St. Charles Halloween Party at Blanchette Park.
I have to dress up for that as well.

Then another week of school will start.
And there are plenty of Physics notes to look forward to.
But we don't have school next Friday, and the thought of that is the only thing that is keeping me alive right now.

DECA

I don't like DECA very much.
But it may just because I don't like dressing up.

Fifty Three (DONE)

Officially, I suppose the project is over.
But let me simply note that today I tried eating some Goldfish and some Honey Bunches of Oats.
I didn't throw up, but lets just say I became violently sick, and still feel that way.
It feels like my stomach is trying to punch me in the face.

Forty Seven

Just got back from the DECA fall conference at the Lake of the Ozarks.

It was pretty boring.

I asked Jasmine to teach me how to play the guitar.

We're going to do it after school.

I saw "Moneyball" with my brother. 

I was awesome.

Chris Pratt was in it and he's just great.

I have to do my homework now.

I don't want to, but I don't even know what I want to do anymore.

So maybe it is what I want.

Didn't exercise the today and yesterday, but I didn't eat a lot anyway so I guess I'll just forget about it.

And it was freaking freezing today which I wasn't prepared for at all.

Cardinals are in the World Series.

Tomorrow I have Mu Alpha Theta.

I'm leaving now, I'm not interested in this.

Forty Four

I don't want to write anymore.
I'm sick of dwelling on past experiences...
I mean, who really cares?
All you can do with your past is learn from it, then push it aside.
I love my past, but only because it made me who I am now, and someday the parson I am now will be my past.

I kind of used to think that I understood what I should do with my life.
Not in a career sense, just in a general sense.
You know, work hard, get good grades, go to college, get a good job that I like.
But I honestly couldn't care less about all that stuff in some ways.
I just want to be happy.

My sister's friend has a sister named Yolanda.
Yolanda is beautiful and happy and young.
But she has a tumor in her brain and four years ago she was given five more years to live.
She's going to die at the end of this year.
I have never even met her, but I think about her a lot.
I'm not scared for her or angry about it or anything.
She can handle it, she's strong.
I just want to take something from her story.
She's going to die and I am going to live.
I'm going to have  better attitude from now on.


When this project is over I don't know If I'm going to blog anymore.
Maybe, but just to keep track.
Maybe I'll do one of those five year diary things where you only write down a sentence for every day.
I just don't like to dwell on the past, and I don't want to.

You know what I do want?
A great camera.
I would take pictures over words any day.


By the way I changed the domain and name of this blog.
Being vegan for fifty days has nothing to do with anything and I don't really care anymore.
I wish I did my project on Disney or something.
Being vegan was really easy for me, so I feel like this project won't be any good.
But then I don't really know what it's about.
Whatever, I haven't done any of my homework and I have to take the psat tomorrow.
So goodnight, sweet dreams.
My mom found my retainer... seems like a good omen to me.

Forty

Sorry, it's been awhile...
Wednesday I took a bunch of tests, and I don't think physics went well.
I fully expect to get a B in that class... hopefully not a C.
Either way, whatever.  I think it shows a vast improvement that I'm not crying my eyes out about it.
After school I went to the Cardinal's game with my brother.
It was awesome, you could feel electricity in the air.
Thursday I went for a run, went to the dentist, and then went to go see my old best friend Erin.
We carved pumpkins, and they actually turned out pretty freaking sweet.
Then we sat around a bonfire for awhile.
Joseph called me and told me to come home and watch The Lion King on blue ray with him and my sister because he had just purchased it.
So of course I did, and it was absolutely amazing.
After it was over we watched all of the special features.
Friday I went to the mall and got a birthday present for Erin and the book I have to read for English.
I went home and made Erin's present (a little doll) while watching The Lion King with director commentary.
That was also awesome.  I don't know If you realize, but The Lion King is super short.
Pretty much all the good (nineties) Disney's are.
Jackie had a fiasco with her boyfriend, which I'm not ashamed to say started with me.
Those two need to break up.
They're wasting each other's time.
Anyway, while Jackie and Mike talked for two hours, Katie and I laid on top of her Jeep and listened to music and acted like luggage whenever my neighbors drove by.
I spent the night at Katie's.
Saturday I woke up feeling sick and read what I needed to read for English.
We have to read "In Cold Blood."
It's about these two guys who murder an entire family.
I finished the first 74 pages, which was the assignment, but I think I'm just going to finish it.
I still have to write the paper that we are supposed to write about it.
I went running.
I took a shower and went over to Katie's for a little.
I still felt sick and I couldn't stand listening to Jackie talk so I went home.
Today I woke up and went to 8:15 mass with my mom.
We went to buy my cousin a present, and I ended up making her a little doll too.
We also bought a blazer for DECA.
I hate dressing in business attire.
I came home and made the doll for my cousin Suzanne, and watched the Cardinals lose.
Went running.
Now I'm doing this.

Tomorrow I'm going to my mom's school to make stuff for Mu Alpha Theta's trick or treat street room.
I know no one else in the club is going to do it.
So I'm going to sleep, because I have to get up early.

Pumpkin I carved.  I named him Milo after the kid in "The Phantom Tollbooth."
He's very lopsided, but I think it gives him character.