World Series Game Six

Please win.
to do...
1) vocab quizzes
2) physics homework
3) ap government reading
4) run
5) In Cold Blood/sleep

Halloween Weekend

I'm addicted to wasting time.
I now have a functioning twitter account, even though I don't have a smart phone.
I didn't run today because I couldn't find my head phones.
Turns out that my brother used them and they were in his room.
Tomorrow I have to wake up early and go to a FBLA meeting.
Then I have to survive another day of school.
Then after school there is a swimming meeting.
I have to start eating very, very healthy now - and stop eating so much.
There is only one week until swimming starts.
I only say this because I don't want to look like a sloppy slob in my swimming suit.
I also SHOULD run tomorrow and the next day, but I want to see the play tomorrow and Trick or Treat Street is on Friday.
I have two interviews for yearbook or newspaper or FHNtoday or something.
One of which forces me to travel to sports authority.
Then I have to pick up some flowers for Julia and Chase, and go see the play.
Maybe I can go running right before the play, but I seriously doubt it.
The play is from seven to nine.
So if I finish all of my homework maybe I can run right after, but I know I'm going to want to go to sleep.
At some point I also have to bake cupcakes for NHS' Trick or Treat Street room.
Then Friday I have to wake up even earlier and go to a NHS meeting.
Then I have to survive another day of school.
Then I have to stay after and set up for Mu Alpha Theta's Trick or Treat Street room.
At some point I'll have to run home and put on my Hermione costume.
Then I'll have to comeback between 5 pm and 7 pm, then stay to clean up until around 8:30 pm.
Then Bridget invited me to go dance in bars on main street with her.
Who knows if thats actually going to happen.

Jackie wants me to go get stuff for her costume Saturday morning, but I'll probably be dead tired.
In the evening everyone is going to Marie's house for a Halloween party.

Sunday morning I'll probably go to church.
Then from 5pm to 9pm I'll be volunteering at the St. Charles Halloween Party at Blanchette Park.
I have to dress up for that as well.

Then another week of school will start.
And there are plenty of Physics notes to look forward to.
But we don't have school next Friday, and the thought of that is the only thing that is keeping me alive right now.

DECA

I don't like DECA very much.
But it may just because I don't like dressing up.

Fifty Three (DONE)

Officially, I suppose the project is over.
But let me simply note that today I tried eating some Goldfish and some Honey Bunches of Oats.
I didn't throw up, but lets just say I became violently sick, and still feel that way.
It feels like my stomach is trying to punch me in the face.

Forty Seven

Just got back from the DECA fall conference at the Lake of the Ozarks.

It was pretty boring.

I asked Jasmine to teach me how to play the guitar.

We're going to do it after school.

I saw "Moneyball" with my brother. 

I was awesome.

Chris Pratt was in it and he's just great.

I have to do my homework now.

I don't want to, but I don't even know what I want to do anymore.

So maybe it is what I want.

Didn't exercise the today and yesterday, but I didn't eat a lot anyway so I guess I'll just forget about it.

And it was freaking freezing today which I wasn't prepared for at all.

Cardinals are in the World Series.

Tomorrow I have Mu Alpha Theta.

I'm leaving now, I'm not interested in this.

Forty Four

I don't want to write anymore.
I'm sick of dwelling on past experiences...
I mean, who really cares?
All you can do with your past is learn from it, then push it aside.
I love my past, but only because it made me who I am now, and someday the parson I am now will be my past.

I kind of used to think that I understood what I should do with my life.
Not in a career sense, just in a general sense.
You know, work hard, get good grades, go to college, get a good job that I like.
But I honestly couldn't care less about all that stuff in some ways.
I just want to be happy.

My sister's friend has a sister named Yolanda.
Yolanda is beautiful and happy and young.
But she has a tumor in her brain and four years ago she was given five more years to live.
She's going to die at the end of this year.
I have never even met her, but I think about her a lot.
I'm not scared for her or angry about it or anything.
She can handle it, she's strong.
I just want to take something from her story.
She's going to die and I am going to live.
I'm going to have  better attitude from now on.


When this project is over I don't know If I'm going to blog anymore.
Maybe, but just to keep track.
Maybe I'll do one of those five year diary things where you only write down a sentence for every day.
I just don't like to dwell on the past, and I don't want to.

You know what I do want?
A great camera.
I would take pictures over words any day.


By the way I changed the domain and name of this blog.
Being vegan for fifty days has nothing to do with anything and I don't really care anymore.
I wish I did my project on Disney or something.
Being vegan was really easy for me, so I feel like this project won't be any good.
But then I don't really know what it's about.
Whatever, I haven't done any of my homework and I have to take the psat tomorrow.
So goodnight, sweet dreams.
My mom found my retainer... seems like a good omen to me.

Forty

Sorry, it's been awhile...
Wednesday I took a bunch of tests, and I don't think physics went well.
I fully expect to get a B in that class... hopefully not a C.
Either way, whatever.  I think it shows a vast improvement that I'm not crying my eyes out about it.
After school I went to the Cardinal's game with my brother.
It was awesome, you could feel electricity in the air.
Thursday I went for a run, went to the dentist, and then went to go see my old best friend Erin.
We carved pumpkins, and they actually turned out pretty freaking sweet.
Then we sat around a bonfire for awhile.
Joseph called me and told me to come home and watch The Lion King on blue ray with him and my sister because he had just purchased it.
So of course I did, and it was absolutely amazing.
After it was over we watched all of the special features.
Friday I went to the mall and got a birthday present for Erin and the book I have to read for English.
I went home and made Erin's present (a little doll) while watching The Lion King with director commentary.
That was also awesome.  I don't know If you realize, but The Lion King is super short.
Pretty much all the good (nineties) Disney's are.
Jackie had a fiasco with her boyfriend, which I'm not ashamed to say started with me.
Those two need to break up.
They're wasting each other's time.
Anyway, while Jackie and Mike talked for two hours, Katie and I laid on top of her Jeep and listened to music and acted like luggage whenever my neighbors drove by.
I spent the night at Katie's.
Saturday I woke up feeling sick and read what I needed to read for English.
We have to read "In Cold Blood."
It's about these two guys who murder an entire family.
I finished the first 74 pages, which was the assignment, but I think I'm just going to finish it.
I still have to write the paper that we are supposed to write about it.
I went running.
I took a shower and went over to Katie's for a little.
I still felt sick and I couldn't stand listening to Jackie talk so I went home.
Today I woke up and went to 8:15 mass with my mom.
We went to buy my cousin a present, and I ended up making her a little doll too.
We also bought a blazer for DECA.
I hate dressing in business attire.
I came home and made the doll for my cousin Suzanne, and watched the Cardinals lose.
Went running.
Now I'm doing this.

Tomorrow I'm going to my mom's school to make stuff for Mu Alpha Theta's trick or treat street room.
I know no one else in the club is going to do it.
So I'm going to sleep, because I have to get up early.

Pumpkin I carved.  I named him Milo after the kid in "The Phantom Tollbooth."
He's very lopsided, but I think it gives him character.

Thirty Five

Actually, right now physics isn't that bad.
I feel sick.
We didn't have any tums so I ate some of my brother's candy sticks and that kind of made it better, but not really.
Tomorrow I have a physics test and a marketing quiz.
It's a shortened day... and after school I am going to the Cardinals game with my brother.
I'll try to run immediately after school so I don't feel like a lazy bag of bones for the rest of the day.
I really hope the Cardinals win.
Their loss tonight only multiplied my sickness.
I have to drive to SLU and meet Joe after his classes.
So I have to find a random place to park and BLAHH it is going to be so confusing.
I just want to feel not sick.
Today at cross country I actually felt like I was going to die.
I have never grieved over cross country really, bust today my legs we're freaking killing me and I was ridiculously tired.
Then I came home and ate a bunch of food.
So now my legs hurt, I feel sick, and I am contemplating whether I ate to much today.
Blah, whatever.
I just need to move forward and be positive.
And study for physics.

Thirty Four

I really don't like physics very much.

Homecoming (September 24)

Megan, Savannah

Kelly 

Jasmine, Aurora, Katie, Jackie, Smitha, Kelly

Curtis 

Jackie 

Zach

Aurora, Jackie, Smitha, Lindsey, Katie, Carly, Alex, Kelly

Thirty Three

AHH! It's almost been a week since I've blogged... and my last one was garbage.
Sorry about that, here is a recap.

Wednesday, September 28th I just had a bunch of tests and quizzes.
I gave an interview after school to a yearbook journalist about juggling schoolwork and volunteering.
I also ran eight miles that day, which is the most I have ever run, as my half marathon ended on mile seven and a half as Bridget's stupid anti-laxative tried to rip apart every inch of my empty stomach.

Thursday, September 29th I had even more tests and quizzes.
We did hills and distance at cross country.
I set a date to see my old elementary school best friend in the world Erin.
I ate a lot of food and felt the need to run more that night.
I did my usual late-night loop, which took about forty minutes.

Friday, September 29th I didn't have any tests or quizzes!
But I do have an astronomical amount tomorrow, the day after that, and the day after that.
I went to the mall with my mom and picked up a jack o' lantern costume from my cousins house.
I talked to Suzanne (my cousin) for about ten minutes, which made me happy and sad because I love her so much.  I miss Reneé too (Suzanne's sister).  They are my favorite people in the whole entire world.  They are the rare two that I could be stuck in a room with forever and not want to do anything drastic (if you know what I mean).

Saturday, October 1st I had a cross country meet at Parkway Central.
I woke up at 6:30 am, boarded the bus at 7:00 am and ran at 9:30 am.
Fifty percent of the course was in the woods and it had ten zillion hills in it.
It was the hardest course yet, but I still like the woods.
After my race I put on my jack o' lantern costume and cheered for varsity and sophomores and freshmen (sophomore races are rare by the way, it's pretty weird that they had one).
A girl from the newspaper came and took pictures of us dressing up.
She's writing a story about our tradition (we dressed up before scream team started doing it by the way - not that it matters at all, because it is just as awesome).
I didn't get home until 3:30 pm.
I ate some food then walked to church with my mom.
This was a silly idea because my feet were killing me, and my dad had to pick us up after church was over.
My mom and I then went to the mall again (there is nothing to do in St. Charles).
After the mall I went to Katie's house for a bonfire.
We just sat around and played washers (even though it was dark and we couldn't see anything).
We finally went inside and watched Anchorman in Katie's basement.
I accidentally fell asleep at Katie's house around midnight and woke up at about 4:30 am.
I went back to sleep and woke up again at nine, then again at 10.

Sunday, October 2nd (continuation).
I left at ten while Katie and Kelly were still asleep, and walked to my house.
I ate some food and watched some of the Ram's game, then went outside to do some homework and study, but fell asleep instead.
I woke up an hour later.
I was forced to go play tennis with my brother.
I felt sick and sleepy the whole time so the session didn't amount to much.
After I returned home I took a shower.
I went out to buy a notebook and some lead.
I returned home and did my math and physics homework, and took the last vocal test of the quarter for spectra because I didn't want to study for AP Gov.
And now I'm doing this, instead of studying for AP Gov.
Now that I'm done I should go study.

Oh by the way, at the bonfire Kelly told Katie and I that she went out to eat with Jackie and three others.
She explained how she had been the one to invite them all, but was left out when they got to the restaurant.
Jackie and the other girl were tweeting to each other the entire time and the guys were being jerks too.
Katie and I told her we understood and we told her about our Jackie-venting sessions.
We said we would invite her to our next one, because if you don't vent to someone, you just explode into a million little pieces.
I told her that for the past year Jackie has become such a phony.
She was always a little fake, but now it is pretty unbearable.
She's okay when it is just me and her, but when we are with people other that Katie and Marie, she is so freaking annoying.

Uhm, but yeah...
Wednesday is our last day of school before fall break!
I have cross country pretty much every morning except Sunday.
On Thursday I'm hanging out with Erin.
On the 8th Im visiting Westminster with my sister.
I'm having a halloween party at my house at some point.
On the 11th, 12th, or 13th I'm visiting my sisters friend Ally at Mizzou and she's going to give me a tour of the University and I'm going to spend the night in her dorm.
On the 15th I am taking the PSAT (so I will be studying in any prior free-time).
On the 16th I am going to the DECA State Fall Conference at the Lake of the Ozark's.
I will be rooming with Jackie, Jordan, and Kailee... and out of the three, Kailee annoys me the least (which is saying something).
But it will probably still be really fun.
I will return home on Monday the 17th, and School resumes the 18th.

Then after that is one last cross country meet, Trick or Treat Street, FBLA Fall Conference, Halloween, Fall Retreat, and then swim season will start (SO EXCITED).

So here's too a good week.
Sorry If I miss a few posts by the way, this week is going to be crazy.
But when it is over it is going to be so much fun.
I need to study...